AUDIO: The Biggest Mistake of My Career
Being perfect isn’t easy. First you have to keep up the illusion in your own mind. Then you have to be prepared at any moment to go from zero to sixty, to be bullet proof and never vulnerable. Trust me, I know how this works.
I thought I had a pretty clear definition of success and it drove me to 100 hour weeks, isolation and an expectation that I had to carry everyone on my back to the finish line. After all, I’m the leader, which means my ideas are the best, my decisions are always held in awe and nobody would even know when to use the restroom if I weren’t around.
People often ask me about the secret to my success. It really comes down to this: somehow, you’ve got to survive your own ego, false beliefs, and dangerous illusions about what success is really all about.
An Unchallenged Illusion
The biggest mistake of my career isn’t what you’re thinking. Something you need to know is that there are always catalysts which can spawn incredible success and others that are waiting to crash your party. The biggest mistakes are always like a dormant virus that invade the body and hang around waiting for conditions to be right. You don’t even realize the danger until they are unmasked for what they really are.
Somehow, I accepted the belief that my only value was in my ability to perform; to continually prove I was worthy and live up to what I believed were the expectations of others and the expectations of God.
As long as I could perform, I understood why people would care about me and why God would love me. Allowing that belief to position itself unchallenged in my life shifted my orbit in a way that ultimately denied relationships, satisfaction, peace and contentment. And when economic conditions threatened my false reality, my decisions were equally as faulty.
Building My Own Prison
Defending my skewed sense of validation kept me from the Kingdom Reality which was my true inheritance in Christ. Desperately trying to cling to my little kingdom led me to prison but the reality was much worse. I had been in prison long before I realized it: a prison to my own false beliefs.
The biggest mistake of my career was believing I was the center of my own universe. When the only one you can depend on is yourself, the greatest assets you’ve been given are impossible to receive. If you’re making the same mistake I did, don’t wait until you’re broken to begin pursuing the breakthrough you were created to enjoy.